"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”
I need a place to vent an this is as good as any. You'll find quotes I like, pictures and music that calms me, and occasionally a lot of tears.
my heart is soaring
so many wonderful things have happened
im going to the conservatoire
he kissed me
one of these days I hope to be breathtaking
to enter a room and have all eyes on me
stunningly beautiful and charismatic
no no no no
why did a friend I trust have to go and be clingy on the boy I like. I need him to tell me how he feels because we have been skirting around it for months
but why did you do that. why.
i’m so hopelessly upset.
and I don’t know. I don’t know so much.
and i’m tired of being lectured and told i’m better and that i’m too smart to not know
i’m sorry that every time I say something it’s misconstrued because I didn’t articulate it like I meant
i’m scared at how much I’ve stopped caring
and i’m scared what happens after
what’s next and why
I didn’t expect to live this long
you know kids challenge each other on the play ground “i’m going to live to 100” “i’m going to live to 1000”
I always expected life to end
every year older I was more and more
I was never good at looking to the future
the joke is that instead of crying like I so desperately need to
I started counting off the ways I could kill myself
why am I so sad
I had a great couple weeks
and then BAM my mood completely did a 180 and now I feel like crying
out of disappointment?
I have no idea.
I don’t even know if I like him anymore and what do I do
is it because I am sad
or because I never really liked him to begin with
and then there’s the fact I didn’t get cast in the student production I wanted to be in
I want it to be Friday so I can figure this out.
just kiss me