"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”
I need a place to vent an this is as good as any. You'll find quotes I like, pictures and music that calms me, and occasionally a lot of tears.
I just really want this
and I need to know
I just need to kinda bite the bullet and ask
but jesus im so scared
Thursday p and I accidentally walked to class together
Friday was all kinds of absurd
L and me filming a scene where we were cuddling in bed?
P and I filming a scene that was completely platonic and got turned in to flirty by the directors?
us actually kind of flirting?
evidently I look beautiful on camera?
"the camera loves you" a thing that was actually said in real life to me
n winking at me?
the AD blowing me a kiss?
what on earth
erg so much happened today.
p saying he had to show me something.
delivering my monologue to p who jumped up to be my sight line
m and our tutor saying that even though they don’t like love speeches they liked mine
l saying I nearly made him cry
tutors praising me over lunch and telling me to continue with it
p saying he would love to do my scene with me
everyone saying what a shame it is for me not to be staying for 3rd year
sunday sunday sunday
that moment when you know you’re either about to get what you want
or get hurt
When I was little I wanted to be a princess.
That’s not a viable option, so a movie star is close enough.
actual praise about my work hell yeah hell yeah hell yeah hell yeah
"i’ll fight you."
"that’ll just turn me on love, that’s like foreplay."
"do it harder and say my name"
P teasing me for literally the entire afternoon
L teasing me then his girlfriend trying to get in on it. not as funny.
it gets to a point where I just want someone
someone to eat Chinese food with
someone to tease me
someone to play with my hair
and let me sit in their lap
someone who will listen to me
someone to kiss me and put their hands on my waist
someone I can hug whenever I want
and will pick up the phone
someone to fall asleep with
boys with their sleeves rolled up
blue gingham and blue eyes